1 00:03:45,960 --> 00:03:46,960 You hungry? 2 00:03:47,440 --> 00:03:48,440 No. 3 00:03:49,220 --> 00:03:50,220 I'm okay. 4 00:03:50,780 --> 00:03:51,780 Sure. 5 00:03:59,660 --> 00:04:01,640 I thought you both did really well today. 6 00:04:04,120 --> 00:04:04,660 Here 7 00:04:04,660 --> 00:04:12,840 we 8 00:04:12,840 --> 00:04:13,840 go. 9 00:04:14,460 --> 00:04:15,460 Come on. 10 00:04:23,020 --> 00:04:24,020 Leave him, sir, please. 11 00:04:25,260 --> 00:04:26,260 Goodbye. 12 00:04:27,200 --> 00:04:28,200 Don't let him carry you, huh? 13 00:04:30,300 --> 00:04:34,080 I can't go to swing you in. 14 00:04:56,880 --> 00:04:57,880 It's true. 15 00:05:00,060 --> 00:05:02,420 Everything that everyone was saying today about Mummy. 16 00:05:06,380 --> 00:05:08,260 You had an amazing mum, boys. 17 00:05:13,580 --> 00:05:14,860 Let's never forget that. 18 00:07:07,530 --> 00:07:12,090 Please don't play What 19 00:07:12,090 --> 00:07:20,930 cereal 20 00:07:20,930 --> 00:07:21,930 do you want? 21 00:07:37,520 --> 00:07:38,520 No, I'll do it. 22 00:07:38,540 --> 00:07:39,540 Thanks. 23 00:07:39,880 --> 00:07:40,900 I'll do it, thank you. 24 00:07:43,100 --> 00:07:44,100 You got it? 25 00:07:44,540 --> 00:07:45,540 Where's the milk? 26 00:07:47,120 --> 00:07:48,120 Where's the milk? 27 00:07:53,460 --> 00:07:56,300 There's no normal milk, but there's loads of your mum. 28 00:07:57,060 --> 00:08:00,640 Got loads of soy milk. No. I know, 29 00:08:01,940 --> 00:08:03,040 but it's all we've got. 30 00:08:54,510 --> 00:08:55,670 You sure you want to go back today? 31 00:08:57,350 --> 00:08:59,450 Because you know you don't have to if it feels too soon. 32 00:09:02,970 --> 00:09:03,970 Right, 33 00:09:05,930 --> 00:09:07,930 um, jacket, please. Which is your jacket? 34 00:09:08,270 --> 00:09:09,270 Oh, this is mine. 35 00:09:10,150 --> 00:09:11,150 Where's my PE kit? 36 00:09:11,730 --> 00:09:12,629 Where is it? 37 00:09:12,630 --> 00:09:13,630 I don't know. 38 00:09:15,490 --> 00:09:16,490 Late. 39 00:09:24,630 --> 00:09:25,850 Yeah. Oh, look, where is it? 40 00:09:30,810 --> 00:09:32,690 Okay. Good boy. Let's go. 41 00:09:33,190 --> 00:09:34,590 Go to where it does. Come on, let's go. 42 00:09:34,850 --> 00:09:35,850 Thank you. 43 00:10:15,319 --> 00:10:16,319 Good to have you back. 44 00:10:43,870 --> 00:10:45,370 Yes, yes, I'm still here. 45 00:10:48,890 --> 00:10:49,890 Right, okay. 46 00:10:50,890 --> 00:10:51,890 Right. 47 00:10:53,630 --> 00:10:56,790 No, I'm not ringing about myself. I'm ringing. 48 00:10:58,490 --> 00:10:59,490 Yes. 49 00:11:01,830 --> 00:11:05,230 No, I gave that information to the last person I spoke to. 50 00:11:07,930 --> 00:11:09,690 Um, no. 51 00:11:10,210 --> 00:11:12,570 Um, please don't put me on hold. 52 00:11:14,199 --> 00:11:17,380 Well, who is the right fucking person to speak to, then? 53 00:11:18,360 --> 00:11:21,720 You don't think? I do. I think I've got every reason to speak to you, like... 54 00:11:21,720 --> 00:11:24,420 I'm sorry. 55 00:11:24,680 --> 00:11:25,680 We'll call you back. 56 00:11:42,540 --> 00:11:44,300 Bit like Tracey Emin's kitchen in here. 57 00:11:47,120 --> 00:11:48,640 Get the boys on the washing up. 58 00:11:56,340 --> 00:12:01,640 Do you want to talk? 59 00:12:06,460 --> 00:12:07,460 Yeah. 60 00:12:11,120 --> 00:12:12,210 You're getting it. sleep. 61 00:12:41,130 --> 00:12:42,790 Do you want me to pick them up from school today? 62 00:12:43,830 --> 00:12:49,870 Thank you. You're good. I need to... I need to do the pick -up. I need to do 63 00:12:49,870 --> 00:12:52,790 things as normally as possible for them. 64 00:12:58,150 --> 00:12:59,150 So, how was it? 65 00:13:01,170 --> 00:13:02,170 Good, I guess. 66 00:13:02,710 --> 00:13:03,710 What did you get up to? 67 00:13:05,150 --> 00:13:09,670 David Matthews tried to be my friend, but he used to be my enemy at school. 68 00:13:10,900 --> 00:13:14,420 Um, I just wanted to say how sorry I am for your loss. 69 00:13:15,500 --> 00:13:18,460 Oh, um, thanks. Thanks very much. 70 00:13:18,700 --> 00:13:19,700 How are you coping? 71 00:13:19,900 --> 00:13:21,460 I can't imagine how you must be feeling. 72 00:13:21,720 --> 00:13:24,860 I mean, we lost Mum last year, so I can a bit. 73 00:13:25,680 --> 00:13:26,680 Foul cancer. 74 00:13:27,980 --> 00:13:28,980 Oh, I'm very sorry. 75 00:13:30,120 --> 00:13:32,020 Well, we knew it was coming, though, with Mum. 76 00:13:32,460 --> 00:13:36,240 I can't imagine what yours must have been like with it being so sudden. 77 00:13:43,120 --> 00:13:49,340 Thank you, I... I just want to say I'm here if you ever want a coffee or if the 78 00:13:49,340 --> 00:13:50,339 boys want a playdate. 79 00:13:50,340 --> 00:13:51,540 My two would love that. 80 00:13:52,980 --> 00:13:53,980 Wouldn't you? 81 00:13:56,360 --> 00:13:57,880 Do let me know if you need anything. 82 00:13:58,140 --> 00:14:01,900 I know everyone says that, but I mean... Come on. 83 00:14:07,020 --> 00:14:08,020 Who is that? 84 00:14:15,919 --> 00:14:16,919 Look, Margaret, 85 00:14:18,320 --> 00:14:19,800 I'd love to stay on it. 86 00:14:20,760 --> 00:14:25,640 Once upon a time there lived a cat and a sparrow and a brave youth. The cat and 87 00:14:25,640 --> 00:14:29,260 the sparrow went to the forest of the chop wood and said to the brave youth, 88 00:14:29,260 --> 00:14:33,480 keep the house but mind if the Baba Yaga comes and counts the spoons. 89 00:14:33,740 --> 00:14:35,080 Can you do the voices? 90 00:14:37,040 --> 00:14:38,040 Sure. 91 00:14:40,260 --> 00:14:42,360 You keep the house but mind. 92 00:14:42,830 --> 00:14:47,050 If the Baba Yaga comes and counts the spoons, don't say a word. 93 00:14:47,250 --> 00:14:48,250 Keep quiet. 94 00:14:49,010 --> 00:14:50,910 Very well, said the brave youth. 95 00:14:51,510 --> 00:14:56,130 Count and the spirit went away, and the brave youth sat on the stove behind the 96 00:14:56,130 --> 00:14:58,130 chimney, anxiously awaiting their return. 97 00:14:58,930 --> 00:15:00,170 Suddenly the wind... 98 00:15:45,200 --> 00:15:46,199 Stop picking up. 99 00:15:46,200 --> 00:15:48,160 Look, I just want to say... 100 00:18:27,950 --> 00:18:28,950 Can you hear me? 101 00:18:29,530 --> 00:18:30,530 Please breathe. 102 00:18:34,050 --> 00:18:34,610 Can 103 00:18:34,610 --> 00:18:42,930 you 104 00:18:42,930 --> 00:18:43,930 hear me? 105 00:18:45,270 --> 00:18:46,270 Hello? 106 00:18:47,550 --> 00:18:48,550 Ambulance? 107 00:18:49,110 --> 00:18:50,670 I don't know. 108 00:18:53,110 --> 00:18:54,109 There's blood. 109 00:18:54,110 --> 00:18:55,890 She's on the floor. She's not breathing. 110 00:20:05,540 --> 00:20:06,900 Feathers are made of pillars. 111 00:21:29,160 --> 00:21:30,360 Like I've got kids out there. 112 00:21:30,880 --> 00:21:31,880 Who is it? 113 00:23:35,280 --> 00:23:36,280 Hello, are you? 114 00:23:38,500 --> 00:23:39,500 Miles away. 115 00:23:40,260 --> 00:23:41,300 Yeah, I could see that. 116 00:23:52,340 --> 00:23:56,600 So, um... How are you holding up? 117 00:23:58,140 --> 00:24:00,940 You know, good days, bad days. 118 00:24:04,100 --> 00:24:05,100 How are the boys? 119 00:24:07,010 --> 00:24:08,130 They met their mum. 120 00:24:08,810 --> 00:24:09,810 Yeah. 121 00:24:10,810 --> 00:24:14,210 Yeah, it's got to be, um... Yeah. 122 00:24:16,490 --> 00:24:17,490 Poor little fellas. 123 00:24:19,070 --> 00:24:24,170 Which reminds me... Oh, 124 00:24:26,330 --> 00:24:27,350 is that Geoff's latest? 125 00:24:29,110 --> 00:24:30,110 I love these. 126 00:24:30,330 --> 00:24:32,310 Well, you know, I just hope it sells. 127 00:24:33,230 --> 00:24:34,230 Thinks that bad. 128 00:24:35,310 --> 00:24:39,050 You know, same old, same old. Wow, I belong to me, losing money on mine. 129 00:24:43,350 --> 00:24:46,070 That's actually what I wanted to talk to you about. 130 00:24:46,390 --> 00:24:48,390 We don't expect it any time soon. 131 00:24:48,830 --> 00:24:53,850 And if you need more time... Honestly, it's really nice to have something else 132 00:24:53,850 --> 00:24:54,850 to focus on. 133 00:24:55,170 --> 00:24:56,170 Sure. 134 00:24:56,590 --> 00:24:59,590 Well, if you're not, you know, a bit much. 135 00:24:59,850 --> 00:25:00,850 I'm sure. 136 00:25:22,540 --> 00:25:27,720 and then you have to try and jump back onto the bed and then you get one horn 137 00:25:58,820 --> 00:26:01,280 Three, two, one, cannibals! 138 00:26:02,380 --> 00:26:04,140 Boys? We said stupid. 139 00:26:04,700 --> 00:26:06,900 Boys, I said bath time now. 140 00:26:08,620 --> 00:26:12,340 Get off, I'm going to cannibals. I hope a demon doesn't come into our house and 141 00:26:12,340 --> 00:26:15,140 ring us on the doorbell. All right, no bath for you. Can you brush your teeth 142 00:26:15,140 --> 00:26:16,280 and put your pyjamas on, please? 143 00:26:17,320 --> 00:26:18,320 That's crazy. 144 00:26:18,660 --> 00:26:20,260 Three, two, one. Can you hear me? 145 00:26:20,860 --> 00:26:26,320 When I come back, I want you to brush your teeth and put your pyjamas on, OK? 146 00:26:27,400 --> 00:26:28,400 Okay? 147 00:27:57,010 --> 00:27:58,010 Hey, hey, hey, hey. 148 00:27:58,330 --> 00:28:01,010 It's all right. It's okay. There's no one in here. Shh. 149 00:28:01,230 --> 00:28:04,150 No, no, no. Look, look, look. There's no one in here. It's all right. 150 00:28:04,670 --> 00:28:05,529 It's okay. 151 00:28:05,530 --> 00:28:06,690 There's no one in here. 152 00:28:06,950 --> 00:28:08,330 You just had a bad dream, all right? 153 00:28:09,150 --> 00:28:10,150 Come on, come here. 154 00:28:11,010 --> 00:28:12,810 Okay, let's get you out of this wet thing. 155 00:28:13,130 --> 00:28:14,170 There we go. 156 00:28:14,710 --> 00:28:16,190 Okay. It's all right. 157 00:28:16,670 --> 00:28:18,110 I heard him. Who? 158 00:28:19,030 --> 00:28:20,770 The crewman from the other drawings. 159 00:28:23,030 --> 00:28:24,710 Those are Daddy's drawings, all right? 160 00:28:25,820 --> 00:28:26,820 Look at me. 161 00:28:27,440 --> 00:28:29,420 Sweetheart, they're not real. They're just drawings, all right? 162 00:28:31,900 --> 00:28:33,100 It's all right. It's OK. 163 00:29:40,170 --> 00:29:41,370 Trauma. Trauma. 164 00:29:43,450 --> 00:29:44,850 Trauma. 165 00:30:17,010 --> 00:30:19,070 Funny how we first met. 166 00:30:38,570 --> 00:30:44,970 have bent him backwards over a chair and fed him foul bulletins of the true one 167 00:30:44,970 --> 00:30:46,590 -hour dying of his wife. 168 00:30:48,270 --> 00:30:49,870 What a bad Buddha. 169 00:31:08,110 --> 00:31:10,510 I believe in the therapeutic method. 170 00:31:11,970 --> 00:31:12,970 Dad. 171 00:31:16,130 --> 00:31:17,130 Dad. 172 00:31:19,790 --> 00:31:22,030 What are you doing? 173 00:31:26,950 --> 00:31:28,430 Are you dead? 174 00:31:29,350 --> 00:31:30,350 Dad. 175 00:31:33,570 --> 00:31:35,810 Dead. He's not dead. 176 00:31:41,480 --> 00:31:42,480 What are you doing? 177 00:31:42,580 --> 00:31:44,500 What are you doing? What are you doing? 178 00:31:45,400 --> 00:31:50,320 What are we doing today? 179 00:31:51,640 --> 00:31:52,820 Getting dressed for school. 180 00:31:53,160 --> 00:31:54,160 But it's a Saturday. 181 00:31:55,520 --> 00:31:59,660 Then you're switching the kettle on for me. 182 00:32:00,040 --> 00:32:01,040 Off you go. 183 00:32:02,420 --> 00:32:03,420 Off you go. 184 00:32:47,850 --> 00:32:52,330 I need you to help me today. I need you to help tidy up, all right? 185 00:32:53,090 --> 00:32:56,830 No, no, no, no, no. I'm not joking. I need you to help tidy up and put things 186 00:32:56,830 --> 00:33:00,210 where they're supposed to be, or I will pick up any toy that I find on the floor 187 00:33:00,210 --> 00:33:01,230 and I will put it in the bin. 188 00:33:49,770 --> 00:33:53,330 I find humans incredibly dull. 189 00:33:55,710 --> 00:34:01,570 Incredibly dull, except in grief. There are very few humans 190 00:34:01,570 --> 00:34:07,190 that interest me for grieving widowers. 191 00:34:11,630 --> 00:34:18,110 Grieving widowers and motherless children are pure. 192 00:34:19,130 --> 00:34:20,130 Leave us alone! 193 00:34:30,429 --> 00:34:31,810 How long has it been now? 194 00:34:33,590 --> 00:34:36,870 Three months. Actually, maybe four months. 195 00:34:37,090 --> 00:34:38,090 Four months. 196 00:34:38,110 --> 00:34:39,870 It takes time to come to terms with. 197 00:34:42,770 --> 00:34:45,510 Yeah, I'm not sure I want to come to terms with it. 198 00:34:52,640 --> 00:34:54,780 terms that would make it all right. 199 00:34:55,920 --> 00:35:00,880 Did you rely on her for... Everything. 200 00:35:05,880 --> 00:35:06,880 Everything. 201 00:35:10,840 --> 00:35:12,560 It's okay to feel overwhelmed. 202 00:35:12,880 --> 00:35:19,260 We can talk about coping strategies or... No, it's all right. I just... 203 00:35:22,190 --> 00:35:23,990 I really came here to talk about my children. 204 00:35:24,630 --> 00:35:26,430 Have there been changes to their behaviour? 205 00:35:27,750 --> 00:35:33,990 My youngest is wetting the bed, nightmares, that kind of thing. And my 206 00:35:33,990 --> 00:35:35,790 is playing up a little bit more than usual. 207 00:35:36,230 --> 00:35:37,450 Are you maintaining routine? 208 00:35:38,170 --> 00:35:39,630 Structured bedtimes, mealtimes? 209 00:35:40,450 --> 00:35:41,450 Not really, no. 210 00:35:42,810 --> 00:35:47,330 You should stick to routine if you can. Children take comfort from routine. 211 00:35:48,170 --> 00:35:49,930 Do you let them see you grieve? 212 00:35:50,830 --> 00:35:51,830 I've been trying not to. 213 00:35:52,290 --> 00:35:54,610 You need to change that. 214 00:35:55,430 --> 00:36:01,350 You mustn't ignore your own grief to protect them. 215 00:36:12,610 --> 00:36:14,230 Ah, there he is. 216 00:36:17,910 --> 00:36:19,030 Sad dad. 217 00:36:30,540 --> 00:36:32,580 that I think I'm being followed by a crow. 218 00:36:32,880 --> 00:36:34,280 You're not fucking real. 219 00:36:45,800 --> 00:36:50,600 Stick to routines, is that what he said? 220 00:36:51,160 --> 00:36:52,540 Children need routines. 221 00:36:53,180 --> 00:36:54,360 Not those boys. 222 00:36:55,060 --> 00:36:59,260 Those boys need bows and arrows, they need stories, they need myths, they need 223 00:36:59,260 --> 00:37:00,520 chaos, they need growth! 224 00:37:00,900 --> 00:37:01,900 They're not real! 225 00:37:28,880 --> 00:37:34,440 ... ... ... 226 00:37:34,440 --> 00:37:40,220 ... 227 00:37:40,220 --> 00:37:44,360 ... ... ... 228 00:37:44,360 --> 00:37:48,180 ... ... 229 00:37:57,640 --> 00:37:59,620 One king, one crown. 230 00:37:59,840 --> 00:38:00,840 You don't deserve me. 231 00:38:27,820 --> 00:38:28,820 Yeah, it's me. 232 00:38:29,260 --> 00:38:34,000 I need your help, please. 233 00:38:36,700 --> 00:38:37,700 Yeah, no. 234 00:38:43,440 --> 00:38:44,440 I'm happy to do it. 235 00:38:45,020 --> 00:38:46,020 Of course I am. 236 00:38:47,720 --> 00:38:49,980 I'm just not sure about you being alone. 237 00:38:51,500 --> 00:38:54,440 Look, I just need to work through things for a bit on my own. 238 00:38:56,970 --> 00:38:57,970 wasn't safe. 239 00:38:58,130 --> 00:38:59,130 What does that mean? 240 00:39:43,020 --> 00:39:44,020 Draw from it. 241 00:39:45,920 --> 00:39:47,580 I do this when you go away. 242 00:39:47,780 --> 00:39:50,360 I won't leave until you don't need me anymore. 243 00:39:50,660 --> 00:39:51,660 I don't need you. 244 00:39:52,640 --> 00:39:53,700 Be careful. 245 00:39:55,280 --> 00:39:57,880 There are far worse than me. 246 00:40:01,820 --> 00:40:03,820 Far, far worse. 247 00:40:05,560 --> 00:40:06,560 Draw. 248 00:40:07,340 --> 00:40:11,320 Draw what? Draw one of your stories and memory, the first thing that comes to 249 00:40:11,320 --> 00:40:12,320 mind. 250 00:40:25,160 --> 00:40:28,260 Oh no, piss -poor looks like a fucking vitriano! 251 00:40:28,600 --> 00:40:29,600 Piss -poor! 252 00:41:32,520 --> 00:41:33,940 It's just the three of us. 253 00:41:36,260 --> 00:41:39,900 I took the boys out to give her some peace because she was ill. 254 00:41:40,700 --> 00:41:41,920 She had the flu. 255 00:41:42,540 --> 00:41:44,920 She never got ill. 256 00:41:45,520 --> 00:41:52,300 The boys must have been three and four. 257 00:41:52,420 --> 00:41:58,520 I took them out to the park and I 258 00:41:58,520 --> 00:42:01,000 was hopeless. 259 00:42:02,040 --> 00:42:03,040 Going in? 260 00:42:03,320 --> 00:42:04,320 No, it's not going in. 261 00:42:05,860 --> 00:42:07,140 Wait a minute, what are you doing again? 262 00:42:07,460 --> 00:42:08,460 No worries. 263 00:42:09,040 --> 00:42:10,040 No patience. 264 00:42:17,060 --> 00:42:18,060 Wait, wait. 265 00:42:19,220 --> 00:42:20,220 Come on. 266 00:42:21,620 --> 00:42:22,680 My feet hurt. 267 00:42:24,860 --> 00:42:25,860 There we go. 268 00:42:26,660 --> 00:42:28,100 Okay, a little bit cold. There we go. 269 00:42:30,700 --> 00:42:31,700 They were cold. 270 00:42:35,700 --> 00:42:40,280 That was the first time they realized I wasn't the amazing dad they thought I 271 00:42:40,280 --> 00:42:41,280 was. 272 00:42:41,760 --> 00:42:43,040 I want money. 273 00:42:43,520 --> 00:42:44,720 It's okay, it's okay. 274 00:42:45,200 --> 00:42:47,640 It's all right. Mommy's not very well, is she, sir? 275 00:43:06,700 --> 00:43:07,700 That was it, wasn't it? 276 00:44:28,240 --> 00:44:29,340 I didn't bother calling ahead. 277 00:44:30,480 --> 00:44:32,580 I didn't want to give you the chance to tell me to piss off. 278 00:44:36,020 --> 00:44:37,020 Hello? 279 00:44:49,600 --> 00:44:52,260 How you doing? 280 00:45:15,610 --> 00:45:18,210 You're the first real person I've seen in a couple of days. 281 00:45:21,130 --> 00:45:22,130 Real person? 282 00:45:30,210 --> 00:45:31,530 Oh, no. No. 283 00:45:31,790 --> 00:45:33,490 No, no. That is not happening. 284 00:45:38,490 --> 00:45:42,310 Sometimes I get angry with her, you know? Like, how could you die on me? 285 00:45:43,950 --> 00:45:46,550 She's the stoic one. She'd have made a much better widow. 286 00:45:46,790 --> 00:45:47,790 Yeah. 287 00:45:48,530 --> 00:45:49,810 It's inconsiderate of her. 288 00:45:51,470 --> 00:45:56,350 Her mum keeps ringing me to remind me of things. Do you remember Wednesday? 289 00:45:56,570 --> 00:45:58,790 I know why she's doing it, but... 290 00:45:58,790 --> 00:46:05,650 I don't want her to turn into 291 00:46:05,650 --> 00:46:08,690 a series of anecdotes because it just reminds me that she's gone. 292 00:46:10,430 --> 00:46:11,490 But she is gone. 293 00:46:12,520 --> 00:46:15,720 Yeah, but if I'm lucky once or twice a week, I think she's going to be back in 294 00:46:15,720 --> 00:46:16,720 minute. 295 00:46:17,460 --> 00:46:18,460 She's going to be back. 296 00:46:28,460 --> 00:46:29,780 I've got a confession to make. 297 00:46:30,720 --> 00:46:34,160 You remember when you split up in the third year? 298 00:46:34,480 --> 00:46:35,480 Yeah. 299 00:46:36,440 --> 00:46:38,900 And you gave me that pen and you were out there to win her back. 300 00:46:43,180 --> 00:46:45,780 Well, it worked, didn't it? 301 00:46:46,020 --> 00:46:52,900 I don't know what you were thinking, and I wasn't going to give it to her, but 302 00:46:52,900 --> 00:46:56,820 she waited until I went to the loo, and then she went into my bag and she got 303 00:46:56,820 --> 00:46:57,820 it. 304 00:46:57,960 --> 00:47:00,200 I was trying to look out for you. 305 00:47:02,640 --> 00:47:03,640 Didn't need to. 306 00:47:04,960 --> 00:47:10,440 We talked, well, she talked, you know, what she would like, and she came round 307 00:47:10,440 --> 00:47:11,560 to an appreciation of it. 308 00:47:12,330 --> 00:47:13,330 Of you. 309 00:47:17,650 --> 00:47:19,650 You two were never not going to be a thing. 310 00:47:23,990 --> 00:47:25,730 You were perfect for each other. 311 00:48:05,060 --> 00:48:07,500 This is fucking awful. 312 00:48:07,880 --> 00:48:10,580 Leave me alone, Crow. I like it. You won. 313 00:48:12,140 --> 00:48:17,420 Middle age, middle class, white widow music, guardian, reading, beard 314 00:48:17,480 --> 00:48:22,160 farmer's market, guest ale, Birkenstock, Barbican shit. 315 00:48:23,360 --> 00:48:24,360 Yeah. 316 00:48:26,680 --> 00:48:29,440 You're such a cliche, you know. 317 00:48:30,720 --> 00:48:32,040 A dead white. 318 00:48:42,160 --> 00:48:43,160 to a headstone. 319 00:48:55,980 --> 00:49:02,680 Once upon a time, there was a king 320 00:49:02,680 --> 00:49:09,580 who had two sons, the queen, and by the way, they were perfect for 321 00:49:09,580 --> 00:49:10,578 each other. 322 00:49:10,580 --> 00:49:16,520 Please, please. Shut up, please, please. They were perfect for each other. They 323 00:49:16,520 --> 00:49:19,340 were never not going to be a thing. Shut up! Shut up! Shut up! 324 00:49:21,920 --> 00:49:23,200 There we go. 325 00:49:23,460 --> 00:49:29,900 There we go. The queen had fallen and bashed her skull in and 326 00:49:29,900 --> 00:49:33,660 so she bled to death. Please, no more. 327 00:49:33,880 --> 00:49:36,600 Please, please. Blood everywhere. I'm trying to tell you a story. 328 00:49:36,940 --> 00:49:38,100 I don't want to fuck... 329 00:49:41,740 --> 00:49:47,520 You wish you were dead. You wish you were dead. Very original. How very 330 00:49:47,520 --> 00:49:48,900 original. 331 00:49:50,180 --> 00:49:53,660 Oh, good. You're angry. Come on. 332 00:50:10,730 --> 00:50:12,050 like a fucking freak back there. 333 00:50:14,890 --> 00:50:17,730 Now listen. 334 00:50:52,780 --> 00:50:54,960 Take the jaws and the paws off a coon. 335 00:50:56,460 --> 00:50:59,000 Take your time, ain't life but good cooking. 336 00:51:00,960 --> 00:51:03,340 Cause the rest of this mess ain't good looking. 337 00:51:05,280 --> 00:51:07,660 Take the fleas from the knees of a demon. 338 00:51:09,260 --> 00:51:11,800 Tell your pals the devil comes breathing. 339 00:51:14,260 --> 00:51:16,880 To the feet, what the beast of the mouth now. 340 00:51:18,380 --> 00:51:21,020 They make wine from the fine air built out. 341 00:51:22,510 --> 00:51:27,250 It's a test for the best for who stays at the feet with the beast of the mouth 342 00:51:27,250 --> 00:51:28,250 out. 343 00:51:29,270 --> 00:51:31,690 Brush your teeth with a piece of a goose toenail. 344 00:51:34,250 --> 00:51:35,250 Look at him. 345 00:51:36,750 --> 00:51:39,250 Some may call my work vulgar. 346 00:52:13,130 --> 00:52:15,290 Can you come into the living room, please? I need to talk to you. 347 00:52:16,250 --> 00:52:18,130 Fine. Are you going to take off our gloves? 348 00:52:19,010 --> 00:52:20,010 Mum! 349 00:52:28,030 --> 00:52:29,130 Come sit down, please. 350 00:52:34,370 --> 00:52:37,290 Come on, sit down. I need to talk to you. Can you give me your hand, please? 351 00:52:40,350 --> 00:52:41,350 Mummy's not here. 352 00:52:41,810 --> 00:52:42,810 OK? 353 00:52:44,360 --> 00:52:49,700 There was... She got sick and there was an accident and... 354 00:52:49,700 --> 00:52:56,580 This is what we know about our mum. 355 00:52:58,780 --> 00:53:00,440 She always smelled nice. 356 00:53:04,200 --> 00:53:06,800 When she told stories, she did all the voices. 357 00:53:09,280 --> 00:53:13,400 She loved playing loud pop music because it annoyed Dad. 358 00:53:16,750 --> 00:53:17,750 And then she died. 359 00:53:20,170 --> 00:53:21,350 Our mum died. 360 00:53:28,770 --> 00:53:32,550 After that, everything was different. We were different. 361 00:53:33,410 --> 00:53:34,610 Different boys. 362 00:53:46,220 --> 00:53:47,220 Dad was different. 363 00:53:53,940 --> 00:53:58,300 A different kind of dad. 364 00:54:00,680 --> 00:54:04,120 Boys, does it sound like you're brushing your teeth? 365 00:54:08,480 --> 00:54:10,420 Boys, are you doing what I asked you to do? 366 00:54:40,490 --> 00:54:41,490 What are you doing? 367 00:54:44,210 --> 00:54:45,210 Take those off. 368 00:55:12,490 --> 00:55:16,290 Dad told stories. The stories changed when Dad changed. 369 00:55:18,570 --> 00:55:20,030 He went quiet. 370 00:55:22,650 --> 00:55:23,650 Angry. 371 00:55:32,330 --> 00:55:33,570 He'd disappear. 372 00:55:40,910 --> 00:55:44,670 I'd tell stories. The stories changed when Dad changed. 373 00:55:50,550 --> 00:55:54,830 I told my brother she could still see us through the mirrors. 374 00:55:56,370 --> 00:55:59,850 He'd spend ages in the bathroom. 375 00:56:04,010 --> 00:56:09,370 I felt bad about it for a while. 376 00:56:14,570 --> 00:56:18,450 My brother gets angry when he loses things that remind him of her. 377 00:56:33,150 --> 00:56:36,290 He said if he has to lose things, Dad should too. 378 00:56:43,950 --> 00:56:46,970 In the end, there's been a couple of parties going on at the other shows. 379 00:56:47,250 --> 00:56:48,370 Even quite madly, yeah. 380 00:56:49,210 --> 00:56:52,650 And then in the midst of that, another member of Starbuck comes to help. 381 00:56:53,710 --> 00:56:56,810 Especially with a teacher. I mean, what were you thinking? It is not okay. 382 00:56:58,210 --> 00:57:00,010 I mean, what do you think your mother would have said, hmm? 383 00:57:04,070 --> 00:57:08,250 No, no, no. Wait, just wait. Hey, stop it. Get off me. Ow. I hate you. 384 00:57:13,840 --> 00:57:14,840 It's okay. 385 00:57:21,320 --> 00:57:22,460 Dad was different. 386 00:57:22,700 --> 00:57:24,120 A different kind of dad. 387 00:57:44,120 --> 00:57:45,120 Oh, sweet. 388 00:57:46,100 --> 00:57:47,800 I think I hit something. Are you coming or what? 389 00:57:48,040 --> 00:57:49,040 Oh, sweet. 390 00:57:49,840 --> 00:57:51,400 My God, you look amazing. 391 00:57:51,760 --> 00:57:52,598 Do you like it? 392 00:57:52,600 --> 00:57:54,560 It's something you're doing with your eye. It's new. 393 00:57:54,900 --> 00:57:56,140 It's almost what you're not seeing. 394 00:57:56,700 --> 00:57:58,020 Can we go to Mrs. 395 00:57:58,700 --> 00:58:01,980 Dawson's? Sure, we can go to Mrs. Dawson's. We have the best way. Does she 396 00:58:01,980 --> 00:58:03,740 the best way? All right, show me the way. 397 00:58:04,140 --> 00:58:05,660 Show me the way. Which way am I going? 398 00:58:05,920 --> 00:58:08,060 This way. This way. And then which way? 399 00:58:24,910 --> 00:58:25,910 You still with us? 400 00:58:28,230 --> 00:58:30,490 This is symbolic, isn't it? 401 00:58:31,210 --> 00:58:32,630 What is? This. 402 00:58:33,470 --> 00:58:37,750 This dream, this memory, this confection, whatever it is. 403 00:58:38,170 --> 00:58:39,910 I wonder what it all means. 404 00:58:40,890 --> 00:58:45,250 The wife's not a ghost, you know. She's not wailing about the house watching you 405 00:58:45,250 --> 00:58:47,090 raise those boys without her. 406 00:59:31,430 --> 00:59:33,490 What's the volcano for? 407 00:59:34,970 --> 00:59:36,610 Come on, come on. 408 00:59:37,670 --> 00:59:39,010 Listen to that. 409 00:59:42,280 --> 00:59:43,580 I love them like this. 410 00:59:44,340 --> 00:59:46,560 Building worlds full of life. 411 00:59:47,680 --> 00:59:48,960 Full of possibility. 412 00:59:51,320 --> 00:59:53,340 I think it's time, don't you? 413 00:59:54,600 --> 00:59:55,600 Yeah. 414 01:00:37,360 --> 01:00:38,640 Shall we play a game? 415 01:00:39,780 --> 01:00:41,500 Here's how it's going to work. 416 01:00:41,720 --> 01:00:48,640 You two boys must each build, here, on the floor... A model of your 417 01:00:48,640 --> 01:00:50,620 mother. A model of your mother. 418 01:00:51,140 --> 01:00:57,720 Just as you'll remember her, and whichever of you builds the best model 419 01:00:57,720 --> 01:01:01,100 win. Not the most realistic, but the best. 420 01:01:01,360 --> 01:01:05,200 Yes. The truest and the prize is... 421 01:01:06,320 --> 01:01:10,260 The best model I will bring to life for one day. 422 01:01:10,840 --> 01:01:14,660 A real living mother to tuck you up. 423 01:01:49,910 --> 01:01:53,790 Now, now, ask you remember. 424 01:02:45,759 --> 01:02:48,280 Right. And stop. 425 01:02:50,660 --> 01:02:51,940 They're both excellent. 426 01:02:52,660 --> 01:02:54,160 You've got a smile. 427 01:02:55,620 --> 01:02:56,780 It's uncanny. 428 01:02:58,920 --> 01:03:04,200 And you have captured her posture. 429 01:03:05,080 --> 01:03:06,280 Which one, Mum? 430 01:03:10,040 --> 01:03:12,560 Well... Which one's going to be turned into Mum? 431 01:03:12,880 --> 01:03:13,880 Sorry, what? 432 01:03:14,320 --> 01:03:15,320 You promised. 433 01:03:15,360 --> 01:03:17,820 Yes. Where is she? 434 01:03:18,380 --> 01:03:22,120 Where is she? Where is she, you bloody old crow? 435 01:03:23,620 --> 01:03:24,620 She's dead. 436 01:03:26,880 --> 01:03:28,360 She can't come back. 437 01:03:29,340 --> 01:03:31,080 That's it, Barnes, that's all you've got. 438 01:03:43,600 --> 01:03:44,600 How you doing boys? 439 01:03:45,220 --> 01:03:46,220 Nearly done? 440 01:03:47,000 --> 01:03:49,160 We can go read these to dad shortly. 441 01:03:51,360 --> 01:03:52,360 How's he been? 442 01:03:53,000 --> 01:03:54,000 Your dad? 443 01:03:55,060 --> 01:03:56,060 I don't know. 444 01:03:57,160 --> 01:04:00,820 And did you keep an emotion diary the last two weeks? 445 01:04:03,500 --> 01:04:04,500 Nah. 446 01:04:05,020 --> 01:04:08,580 That's okay. Did you try the meditation exercises? 447 01:04:13,930 --> 01:04:14,930 Boys! No. 448 01:04:15,590 --> 01:04:16,408 No, no. 449 01:04:16,410 --> 01:04:17,410 It's okay. 450 01:04:17,710 --> 01:04:19,110 Can't feel a bit silly at first. 451 01:04:21,690 --> 01:04:23,970 Is there anything that you want to talk about? 452 01:04:25,130 --> 01:04:26,130 Thoughts of Mum? 453 01:04:28,990 --> 01:04:29,990 Right, that's okay. 454 01:04:30,930 --> 01:04:35,350 Maybe we could draw a picture that shows me how you're feeling, and then we can 455 01:04:35,350 --> 01:04:36,410 talk about them afterwards. 456 01:04:37,030 --> 01:04:38,030 Yeah? 457 01:04:38,310 --> 01:04:39,310 Sound good? 458 01:04:39,630 --> 01:04:40,630 Cool. 459 01:05:06,510 --> 01:05:13,070 Listen, I think we should talk about the difference between grief and despair. 460 01:05:23,930 --> 01:05:24,930 Brad! 461 01:05:27,990 --> 01:05:29,410 Look at you two. 462 01:05:30,350 --> 01:05:31,610 You're so skinny. 463 01:05:32,010 --> 01:05:33,730 Has your dad not been feeding you? 464 01:05:35,690 --> 01:05:36,690 Good morning. 465 01:05:37,590 --> 01:05:38,590 Hello. 466 01:05:40,110 --> 01:05:41,230 Merry Christmas. 467 01:05:41,670 --> 01:05:42,669 Merry Christmas. 468 01:05:42,670 --> 01:05:43,670 Yes. 469 01:05:44,510 --> 01:05:45,650 All right, come on. 470 01:05:48,870 --> 01:05:52,190 Make some noise, Alan. Even without the book outlines. 471 01:06:22,860 --> 01:06:23,860 I'll tell you how they're getting on. 472 01:06:35,500 --> 01:06:36,700 There's a comic coming on. 473 01:06:37,280 --> 01:06:39,600 Well, don't call it a comic. Call it a graphic novel. 474 01:06:40,360 --> 01:06:41,360 Call it a comic. 475 01:06:42,600 --> 01:06:44,300 Yeah, it's all right. It isn't graphic. 476 01:06:45,060 --> 01:06:47,940 Dad doesn't like it when people call them graphic novels. 477 01:06:48,200 --> 01:06:49,200 He says it's wanky. 478 01:06:53,580 --> 01:06:54,580 Well, 479 01:06:55,080 --> 01:06:56,220 you wussed that down, boy. 480 01:06:57,220 --> 01:06:59,120 Did we get you the right ones this time? 481 01:07:00,740 --> 01:07:01,760 It's like his mum. 482 01:07:03,760 --> 01:07:06,420 If she was doing something, she'd pretend she couldn't hear you. 483 01:07:08,400 --> 01:07:10,640 Was that OK, if the papers weren't my best? 484 01:07:11,460 --> 01:07:12,460 Delicious. 485 01:07:14,160 --> 01:07:17,280 What was he like, our mum and Susanne? 486 01:07:17,740 --> 01:07:18,740 Your mum? 487 01:07:20,120 --> 01:07:24,240 Stubborn. You two have got a lot of her in you, in different ways. 488 01:07:25,340 --> 01:07:26,460 How am I like her? 489 01:07:27,240 --> 01:07:28,240 You're funny. 490 01:07:29,020 --> 01:07:32,180 She was very quick -witted, wasn't she, Keith? 491 01:07:33,000 --> 01:07:34,000 Cheeky booger, more like. 492 01:07:38,620 --> 01:07:40,740 Oh, no, no, it's all right. I'll do it. I'll do it. 493 01:07:43,760 --> 01:07:45,480 It was adorable when she was little. 494 01:07:46,440 --> 01:07:49,800 But when she was a teenager... Oh, my God. 495 01:07:50,610 --> 01:07:51,950 You couldn't win an argument. 496 01:07:59,490 --> 01:08:03,250 Go and get the photo album from next door and I'll show you the first time 497 01:08:03,250 --> 01:08:04,290 brought your dad back here. 498 01:08:38,120 --> 01:08:40,640 Crow, tie him to the mast and batter him. 499 01:08:41,100 --> 01:08:42,100 Destroy the crow! 500 01:08:42,779 --> 01:08:43,779 Catch him again. 501 01:08:43,939 --> 01:08:45,020 Let's get Crow! 502 01:08:46,160 --> 01:08:47,560 Scourge him to a stop. 503 01:08:49,060 --> 01:08:52,439 Shove the gate! Kill him and drown him in blood! 504 01:08:52,920 --> 01:08:53,920 Oh, Christ! 505 01:08:54,100 --> 01:08:58,420 Oh, boy, son of a... If he takes our castle, we burn it. 506 01:08:59,160 --> 01:09:02,340 So much of it when the boys smile is the same smile. 507 01:09:06,920 --> 01:09:10,260 You can take this home with me if you want. No, leave it here. 508 01:09:11,100 --> 01:09:12,380 It's good to know. Let the boys see. 509 01:09:12,779 --> 01:09:14,060 Yeah, they should see. 510 01:09:15,920 --> 01:09:18,479 Wee -wee -wee -wee, up here. 511 01:09:19,580 --> 01:09:24,060 Come on, come on, come on. No one do we know, we hurt and do we not know. Blood 512 01:09:24,060 --> 01:09:25,779 drum, fox cubs, dead meat. 513 01:09:26,779 --> 01:09:29,720 Captain Kill, be a killer. Come on, he went this way. 514 01:09:30,720 --> 01:09:32,300 Come on. Look at his hat. 515 01:09:33,000 --> 01:09:35,939 I think that was my mum's hat. 516 01:09:36,170 --> 01:09:37,330 I'm just going to check on it, actually. 517 01:09:37,550 --> 01:09:38,550 Okay, okay. See you then. 518 01:10:11,430 --> 01:10:12,810 What the hell do you think you're doing, huh? 519 01:10:14,390 --> 01:10:15,430 We're looking for you everywhere. 520 01:10:17,730 --> 01:10:18,730 You're bleeding. 521 01:10:20,570 --> 01:10:21,570 What's going on? 522 01:10:21,950 --> 01:10:22,950 Huh? 523 01:10:24,470 --> 01:10:25,470 I'm fine. 524 01:10:25,530 --> 01:10:27,510 You've got cuts and scratches all over you. 525 01:10:29,950 --> 01:10:31,370 What have you been doing to him? 526 01:10:32,090 --> 01:10:33,470 What have you been doing? 527 01:10:33,810 --> 01:10:34,789 It was Crow. 528 01:10:34,790 --> 01:10:35,790 It wasn't fucking Crow. 529 01:11:56,620 --> 01:11:58,980 Sometimes we felt like he was our dad again 530 01:12:02,670 --> 01:12:03,770 But it never lasted. 531 01:12:46,700 --> 01:12:47,760 We're thinking about you today. 532 01:12:48,660 --> 01:12:49,660 Good to call, eh? 533 01:12:50,320 --> 01:12:51,320 Hope you're all right. 534 01:12:53,080 --> 01:12:54,720 I've tried you a couple of times. 535 01:12:56,140 --> 01:12:59,200 Today's been tough, and I'm sure it has for you, too. 536 01:13:00,840 --> 01:13:03,360 Anniversary's hard, and... Well... 537 01:13:03,360 --> 01:13:10,960 Dad? 538 01:13:12,400 --> 01:13:14,020 I've got to read us a story. 539 01:13:14,660 --> 01:13:15,720 No, it's too late. 540 01:13:16,110 --> 01:13:17,170 Please. I said no. 541 01:13:17,950 --> 01:13:19,490 No bedtime stories tonight. 542 01:13:23,570 --> 01:13:24,570 Shame on you. 543 01:13:38,470 --> 01:13:40,630 Does Daddy need a cuddle? 544 01:13:42,860 --> 01:13:47,260 Once upon a time, there was a king who had two sons. 545 01:13:47,840 --> 01:13:52,700 One day, his queen dropped down dead. Fuck off! 546 01:13:54,540 --> 01:14:01,460 And so the king allowed his kingdom to go to ruin and abandoned his 547 01:14:01,460 --> 01:14:07,940 two sons so he could wallow in self -pity. 548 01:14:15,820 --> 01:14:18,540 Get up. No more. 549 01:14:20,880 --> 01:14:21,880 No more. 550 01:14:23,980 --> 01:14:25,520 You have to go. 551 01:14:28,660 --> 01:14:30,920 I am sure about that. 552 01:14:31,160 --> 01:14:32,160 Yes, yes. 553 01:15:32,010 --> 01:15:33,010 Who is it? 554 01:15:35,650 --> 01:15:36,650 Simon Colery. 555 01:15:37,550 --> 01:15:38,650 From number 56. 556 01:15:43,030 --> 01:15:44,610 How can I help you, Simon? 557 01:15:44,990 --> 01:15:46,610 I know we don't know each other. 558 01:15:47,230 --> 01:15:49,210 I wondered if I could borrow some milk. 559 01:15:55,770 --> 01:15:58,650 I'm afraid we've run out of milk. 560 01:16:00,430 --> 01:16:02,790 I'm sure the shop in the corner will still be open. 561 01:16:08,050 --> 01:16:10,370 There is a number 56. 562 01:16:14,270 --> 01:16:20,250 Now, boy, Daddy can't tell you what's starting to happen, but I can. 563 01:16:21,830 --> 01:16:28,050 Once upon a time, there was a demon, a terrible demon, who fed on despair. 564 01:16:29,480 --> 01:16:34,660 A demon who would hunt every inch of the earth for the saddest, most delicious 565 01:16:34,660 --> 01:16:36,640 person he could find. 566 01:16:39,660 --> 01:16:46,400 He's a very clever demon, but... very cunning. 567 01:16:49,260 --> 01:16:50,260 Who is it? 568 01:16:51,820 --> 01:16:54,180 Dan. From Parenthesis. 569 01:16:55,560 --> 01:16:57,120 Dan? Yes. 570 01:16:58,960 --> 01:16:59,960 From Parentheses. 571 01:17:00,140 --> 01:17:02,220 I come in, sitting down. 572 01:17:02,820 --> 01:17:07,020 Worked there for years and I've never heard of anyone called Dan. 573 01:17:08,660 --> 01:17:09,840 What's your last name? 574 01:17:11,060 --> 01:17:12,060 Dan? 575 01:17:14,460 --> 01:17:15,460 Graeme. 576 01:17:16,980 --> 01:17:17,980 I'm new there. 577 01:17:18,100 --> 01:17:19,100 Put me in your book. 578 01:17:20,540 --> 01:17:21,540 Thought I'd say hello. 579 01:17:29,680 --> 01:17:30,680 Come all this way. 580 01:17:31,360 --> 01:17:32,780 Now you're going to have to leave. 581 01:17:35,160 --> 01:17:36,440 At least use your lab. 582 01:17:40,460 --> 01:17:42,580 Ah, boys. 583 01:17:43,760 --> 01:17:49,800 This demon can only feast if those in despair allow it. 584 01:17:51,100 --> 01:17:53,280 So who do you think he's coming for tonight? 585 01:17:54,080 --> 01:17:55,360 Who do we know? 586 01:17:56,320 --> 01:17:57,320 It's Sander. 587 01:18:02,990 --> 01:18:03,990 It's the police! 588 01:18:04,730 --> 01:18:07,010 I'm going to give you the count of five when I'm coming in. 589 01:18:07,630 --> 01:18:11,470 One, two... What's going on? Go back upstairs to your room. 590 01:18:11,710 --> 01:18:13,010 Three... What's going on? 591 01:18:14,270 --> 01:18:16,010 Four... Five... No. 592 01:18:20,610 --> 01:18:21,910 Okay, out of your way. 593 01:18:23,630 --> 01:18:26,250 There's someone here who wants to speak to you. 594 01:18:54,559 --> 01:18:55,760 Come back. 595 01:19:02,320 --> 01:19:03,440 Open the door. 596 01:19:06,720 --> 01:19:07,720 Open up. 597 01:19:11,340 --> 01:19:12,360 Let me in. 598 01:19:15,320 --> 01:19:16,580 Are the boys there? 599 01:19:21,580 --> 01:19:25,960 Mum! Mum! Please, please, it's not mummy. Mum! 600 01:19:26,700 --> 01:19:27,920 Don't! Mum! 601 01:19:29,840 --> 01:19:31,720 I've missed you all so much. 602 01:19:35,500 --> 01:19:37,440 Come on, open up. 603 01:20:01,290 --> 01:20:02,290 Let him go. 604 01:20:15,750 --> 01:20:17,210 I need you. 605 01:20:17,870 --> 01:20:20,910 I love you. 606 01:20:21,710 --> 01:20:24,150 Come with me. 607 01:21:23,050 --> 01:21:24,050 Nobody came. Nobody came. 608 01:24:04,060 --> 01:24:05,060 Here, here. 609 01:24:05,500 --> 01:24:06,500 Another one. 610 01:24:07,280 --> 01:24:08,079 It's all right. 611 01:24:08,080 --> 01:24:08,858 It's okay. 612 01:24:08,860 --> 01:24:09,860 It's okay. 613 01:24:10,940 --> 01:24:12,000 Just keep with it, please. 614 01:24:12,360 --> 01:24:13,360 Please, Crow. 615 01:24:13,740 --> 01:24:14,740 Don't die, not. 616 01:24:14,800 --> 01:24:15,800 Please, don't die. 617 01:24:16,080 --> 01:24:17,080 Please. 618 01:24:18,160 --> 01:24:19,160 You can't die. 619 01:24:20,760 --> 01:24:21,760 Crow, don't die. 620 01:24:22,160 --> 01:24:23,500 We need you, Crow. 621 01:24:54,730 --> 01:24:55,730 What do you mean, girl? 622 01:25:31,910 --> 01:25:35,870 I am self -aware. 623 01:25:37,490 --> 01:25:44,070 And everywhere I go, you're always 624 01:25:44,070 --> 01:25:46,370 right there with me. 625 01:25:47,110 --> 01:25:50,790 I've flirted with you all my life. 626 01:25:51,830 --> 01:25:55,850 Even kissed you once or twice. 627 01:25:57,450 --> 01:26:03,990 And to this day I swear it was nice, but clearly I was not ready. 628 01:26:26,350 --> 01:26:33,250 When you touched a friend of mine, I thought I would lose 629 01:26:33,250 --> 01:26:34,550 my mind. 630 01:26:35,350 --> 01:26:42,250 But I found out with time that really I was not ready. 631 01:26:42,630 --> 01:26:44,050 No, no. 632 01:26:44,330 --> 01:26:48,670 Oh, death. 633 01:26:49,190 --> 01:26:53,450 Oh, death. 634 01:26:58,750 --> 01:27:01,470 Really, I'm not ready. 635 01:27:23,290 --> 01:27:25,970 Oh, death, you hector me. 636 01:27:28,490 --> 01:27:31,590 Decimate those dear to me. 637 01:27:32,910 --> 01:27:35,590 Tease me with your sweet relief. 638 01:27:36,070 --> 01:27:39,910 You are cruel and you are constant. 639 01:27:42,570 --> 01:27:49,110 Oh, death, really, I'm not ready. 640 01:27:49,570 --> 01:27:51,850 No, no. Oh, 641 01:27:52,850 --> 01:27:54,970 death. 642 01:28:41,840 --> 01:28:43,900 There he is, the man of the hour. 643 01:28:44,120 --> 01:28:45,120 The book is beautiful. 644 01:28:45,940 --> 01:28:46,940 Thank you. 645 01:28:47,120 --> 01:28:48,120 Won't be beautiful. 646 01:28:48,260 --> 01:28:50,340 Only kept us waiting 18 months, didn't he? 647 01:28:52,240 --> 01:28:53,400 Thank you. Thank you. 648 01:28:54,640 --> 01:28:55,740 Hey. Hey. 649 01:28:56,300 --> 01:28:57,340 Got a lot of questions. 650 01:28:58,600 --> 01:29:00,840 So do I. 651 01:29:02,060 --> 01:29:04,280 Seriously, though, very proud to have it. 652 01:29:04,500 --> 01:29:05,540 Very, very proud. 653 01:29:06,580 --> 01:29:07,580 Sorry, 654 01:29:08,220 --> 01:29:09,220 are you my brother? 655 01:29:10,860 --> 01:29:14,960 You look a bit like him. I mean, he's usually a lot scruffier. Come here. 656 01:29:17,680 --> 01:29:18,760 Kate, thank you for coming. 657 01:29:22,700 --> 01:29:24,740 Amanda, say, give me a moment. 658 01:29:26,300 --> 01:29:27,300 Hey. Hey. 659 01:29:27,500 --> 01:29:28,500 Thank you. 660 01:29:29,400 --> 01:29:30,400 Oh, don't mess up. 661 01:29:31,300 --> 01:29:36,240 Come on, then. Say a few words. 662 01:29:40,150 --> 01:29:46,150 Well, thank you, everyone, for coming tonight. Thank you, Andy, for organising 663 01:29:46,150 --> 01:29:47,150 it. 664 01:29:49,630 --> 01:29:51,890 Sorry, I'm not very good at public speaking. 665 01:30:00,970 --> 01:30:01,970 Where was I? 666 01:30:03,810 --> 01:30:04,890 Yes, well, thank you. 667 01:30:06,050 --> 01:30:09,840 It's taken a while to get here and I... I wouldn't be here tonight without a lot 668 01:30:09,840 --> 01:30:13,400 of people in this room. So thank you. 669 01:30:14,700 --> 01:30:21,620 Thank you to my two boys for putting up with your sad, mad 670 01:30:21,620 --> 01:30:24,060 dad. I love you both very much. 671 01:30:26,360 --> 01:30:30,240 Thank you to Paul. 672 01:31:32,810 --> 01:31:37,050 As you were, English Widower. 673 01:32:07,870 --> 01:32:08,870 That's the only way back. 674 01:32:09,330 --> 01:32:10,330 That's the only way back. 675 01:32:39,920 --> 01:32:40,920 Sorry. 676 01:32:44,240 --> 01:32:45,460 You'd have hated this. 677 01:32:48,700 --> 01:32:53,540 But you're not here, so... I'm going to do it anyway. 678 01:32:57,100 --> 01:32:58,500 To all right things. 679 01:32:59,680 --> 01:33:04,600 I compare that... to a snowflake. 680 01:33:05,140 --> 01:33:06,380 But rather... 681 01:33:52,010 --> 01:33:58,730 i love you i love you i 682 01:33:58,730 --> 01:34:05,630 love you i love you 683 01:34:39,980 --> 01:34:46,680 Across the evening sky All the birds 684 01:34:46,680 --> 01:34:52,800 are leaving But 685 01:34:52,800 --> 01:34:59,660 how can they know It's time for them 686 01:34:59,660 --> 01:35:00,660 to go 687 01:36:10,760 --> 01:36:17,380 Diverted shore, your fickle friends are leaving. 688 01:36:22,480 --> 01:36:28,520 Ah, but then you know, time's... 689 01:37:40,140 --> 01:37:41,140 Hello.